just some whining

Today has just been a bummer. Between this trial going on, watching this movie in class tonight, finding out about bad things happening to some friends, and then coming home to find my husband watching an ER marathon (the really sad episodes where Carter and Luka are in Africa), I’ve just been in a subdued place today.

And then I noticed that the Tool concerts around here are going to be rescheduled for riiight around my due date, so I’ll likely be missing those. And that further bummed me out. And then I was pushed even deeper into bummed-out territory because it occurred to me: what the hell kind of expectant mother is upset about missing a concert? Seriously. I mean, they’re a favorite band of mine and I really want to add them to the portfolio, but come on.

I have several shows coming up to shoot, and I’ve been merrily agreeing to do them, but now that I’m starting to expand more, I wonder if it’s the right thing to do. Maybe I should take it easy more than I am? Maybe I should give up on this silly music photography dream? Maybe it’s time to grow up? (All of these thoughts add to my bummed-out-edness)

Although…it could work in my favor. My friend M. (whose baby was born 7 weeks premature) had to go down to the hospital in Winston because the one in this po-dunk town can’t handle preemies. She advised me to try to figure out a way to deliver there (with the really great docs and staff) as opposed to here (lesser docs, infamously incompetent nurses and staff). If I DID go to the concert (in Winston), and due to the adrenaline and endorphins somehow ended up going into labor, it would just be a hop, skip, and jump over to the really good hospital. Voila.

Plus, what a great story to mortify the kid with later on: “I damn near delivered you on some slamdancing 14-year-old punk’s trenchcoat, you know that? You should have seen the look on his pierced-up face when my water broke!”

Comments

[RushWife]

Don't you DARE give up on the dream!! You're going to be a mother, you're not going to be dead (hmm sounds like a phase regarding marriage)! Andrew WILL be retiring and THEY will need a replacement and YOU will be right there when called :-) I know Motherhood will be all-consuming at first, but soon enough the fog will clear and life will go on. DO NOT give up on the dream!

[Tomc]

Oh, I think a rock concert is a much better (and more fun) way to induce labor than all those other silly methods people will tell you. Plus you'll have a great photographic document for the baby's scrapbook.